Upcoming Books

BARE Essentials: Surviving Lust, Life & Self

I am so happy to announce that my first poetry book, BARE Essentials: Surviving Lust, Life & Self is now available for purchase!


I must admit, I was pretty nervous about it. For so long I talked about writing a break out poetry book and this time I finally just did it! It’s not the longest book in the world and I know with time I’ll continue to grow and develop as a writer. But for now I am going to enjoy celebrating this great achievement of mine! I am so happy for all of the support over the years and I am happy to say that this is only the beginning. I am working on a novel, which you can read a few of the excerpts on here under upcoming books.

BARE Essentials can be purchased on Amazon.

Thanks again for all of the support and I can’t wait to give you all more of my work and pieces of me along the way.


Exposed By Truth Excerpt 5

“God this woman of mine is so damn frustrating.” I said out loud to myself as Jade left the house without a single word but with a very big attitude as if I could read her mind and automatically know what’s wrong.

I finally understood what the old folks were talking about. You know, those old couples that had been together for years and were still madly in love as if they’d just met. Time, patience, and acceptance was the recipe for the longevity of their relationship.

Time was invested into building a friendship with a solid foundation to form a budding relationship. Patience was necessary too. We all have quirks about us that a significant other may not be able to stand but put up with anyway because nobody’s perfect. Acceptance though, that was the toughest one. You know you really love someone when you truly accept a person for who they are and have no desire to change anything about them. If they’re seeking change, it’s because that’s what they want to do, not what you’re forcing upon them.

I felt all of these things for Jade. I knew she was the one months ago, but her attitude sometimes was hard to swallow. In reality, I knew I couldn’t live without her crazy ass. Her smile made me smile, her conversation was like no other, and the way she knew exactly what to say when I needed it was like nothing I’d ever experienced before. We were so in tune with one another it just felt right.

What the fuck!” I thought to myself.

Her depression and the uncertainty she felt within herself was sometimes too much on me. I’d never tell her that though. When things were good, they were great. Other times it was like walking through a maze, desperately trying to find your way out when you weren’t sure how you ended up there in the first place. One thing I did know for sure was that I wasn’t giving up on her or us.

And the point of it all is I love you, and the reason for it all, is I love you…” Jade’s ringtone filled the silent room and I prepared myself for whatever she might have to say.

Hey love, what do want for dinner tonight?” I stared at the phone, once again taken back by the sudden change in her mood but I was grateful she wasn’t upset anymore. One thing I admired about her was her commitment to not staying angry for too long. We learned early on that holding on to animosity never solved anything and neither one of us really liked to argue anyway.

I’m in the mood for a little soul food and drinks. You choose what that will be.” I replied.

“Ok, I’ll be home after a while. Do you need anything while I’m out? She asked.

“No I have everything I need right here except for you.”  Knowing that would make her smile.

“Ok love, see you later.”

We hung up and I knew the storm had passed for now. Tonight in bed I’ll pick her brain and ask her what was up with her before she left. But for now, I was going to clean the house and get ready for quality time with the love of my life.

-AKT Authentic

Exposed By Truth Excerpt 4

“It’s okay to not be okay.” He said.

“Yeah I know, but I wish it didn’t take so much effort. I feel like such a burden.” I let out an exasperated sigh as the tears continued to fall. “I don’t understand how you deal with me or put up with this. You don’t have to…”

“Listen to me Jade,”  he said. “I love you. This isn’t something you have to run from or hide any longer. I’m choosing you. ALL of you.

Depression doesn’t take away from who you are. It doesn’t take away the light I see in your eyes or the playfulness of your laugh. It doesn’t make you less of a person or unworthy of love. It just means WE have to work a little harder together to make sure you know those temporary feelings are just that, TEMPORARY.” 

“Yeah that sounds good and all Zaiere, but how can we take on something that I don’t even know how to handle most days? How can I expect you to understand when somethings I don’t even understand myself? It wouldn’t be fair of me to ask you to take this on with me.”  I didn’t understand why he couldn’t catch the hint. I didn’t want him to see me like this. Bubbling over with overwhelming emotion that I couldn’t control. I was a hot mess.

“No one ever said you had to ask. I’m willingly taking a stand on this with you. Because I love you. And your well being is more important to me than you being ashamed of your situation. Life happens. We all go through things and sometimes we aren’t supposed to go through those things alone. God placed me in your life at the right time, for the right reasons.

It’s not about me just helping you, loving you is allowing me to help myself too.” 

I sat quietly as I digested what he’d just said. Zaiere wasn’t afraid of feeling but he was also a man of very few words. I could tell the conversation was becoming a bit much for him. Well at least it was becoming too much for me.

I’d never felt so… vulnerable with someone. Is this what real love felt like? If so, I could see why people became obsessed with it.

To have that void filled, that constant want or longing of having someone so selfless come into your life that will compliment you in every way, was happening to me and I didn’t know how to deal.

He was venturing into troubled waters that no one had ever cared enough to explore. Depths that were foreign to anyone except the voice in my head that would tell me I can’t escape it’s murky uncertainty.

But surely, I could defeat the dark pieces of me if he carried the torch of light into my life.

In that moment, I decided to fall.



-AKT Authentic

Exposed By Truth Excerpt 3

Zaiere.” God I loved the sound of his name as it rolled off my lips.

Yes Jade.”

I could hear the smirk in his voice as if he already knew what was coming.

“I have a question.”

He grinned, knowing I was about to say something along those lines.

“What is it love?

“Do you ever get tired of this…phase?”  I stared pensively at the floor, hoping he wouldn’t get frustrated with my ever present sense of insecurity. I wasn’t trying to ruin the flow of our newly budding relationship, but my inner rationale kept telling me that this was too good to be true.

This beautiful, thoughtful man was all mine. And no, I didn’t think less of myself as though I didn’t deserve him, I just figured falling in real love wouldn’t happen to me. I spent all these years building myself and my career up, so I accepted that love may not be apart of the picture for me. I wasn’t a child anymore. Yeah it’s cute too believe in fairy tales when you’re young, but life as an adult will always bring you back to reality.

No, I don’t.” He replied with the most sincere expression that I almost felt bad I even asked.

And before you ask why, I’ll tell you.
I know you’ve been hurt. I know you’ve moved past that hurt for the most part.

But what I see in you now, is fear.

You’ve spent so much time growing into this amazing woman, the guard you’ve put up around yourself may seem impenetrable to another. But for me, I see the woman worth being patient for. I want to remove that fear by loving you unconditionally. I want to break down your resolve, leaving no traces of doubt.

I will not leave you.
I will not hurt you intentionally.

I will do everything in my power to make you comfortable with loving me, just as I love you.

We’re both new to this, but if we’re in it for the long run, this is one hurdle we can work through together. I love you. I want to make you feel secure, and if that means being patient while you work through the insecurities you currently have, I will wait as long as you need me to. We have a lifetime of love flowing between us and I will remind you each day of why I’ll always stay.”


Once again, this selfless human being has left me speechless and even more grateful to have him in my life.

Thank you.”

Unsure of what else I could possibly say, I gave him the most loving kiss and a smile of satisfaction.

One thing I did know for sure, was that I was absolutely smitten. I wouldn’t have guessed in a million years that friendship would lead me to a love like this.

Exposed By Truth Excerpt 2

I stared thoughtfully out the car window wondering where would this lead me. I didn’t do well with uncertainty and this wasn’t the scenario I envisioned when we met.

Falling in love again wasn’t a part of my plan, and neither was disappointment from the lack of reciprocation that was sure to follow if I continued to go along with this. So, I intended to keep my thoughts at bay while I figured out my next move.

“Are you okay?”, he asked.

“Yeah I’m okay…” Meanwhile my mind was a constant stream of “what ifs”.

I didn’t know how to do this.

I didn’t know how to be here and expect the longevity of a relationship when the idea alone made me anxious. Don’t get me wrong I wanted love, I just wasn’t sure if I was fully capable of fulfilling someone else’s needs when I’d just begun to get comfortable with being me.

I’d built up this new person, not perfect, but definitely a woman more than who she was a few years ago. A mended soul desperately hoping not to fall back in the lows of life. But, what if I relapsed and he didn’t accept it?

What if I broke down and didn’t know how to properly articulate anything I was feeling. Would he stay? Would he understand? Of course they all say they’ll be there through it all but the way life worked, that never happened.

“Can you really pull yourself together again after another heartache?” 

The on flow of thoughts badgered me until I finally let out a sigh of discontent.

“Get over it Jade.”

My subconscious chastised the disheartening banter of thoughts, urging me to get back to being happy.

“Look at me”, he stated with a soft but authoritative tone that I made my stomach twitch.I turned reluctantly praying that my face wouldn’t give away the concern that plagued my thoughts.

“I won’t leave you.”

And just like that, he’d read my mind without me saying a single word.


Exposed By Truth Excerpt 1

I woke with the notion that it had all been a dream but it wasn’t. Sweat beaded slightly around my temples as my labored breathing came to a calming tempo. I rolled over and there he was.


I admired his chiseled jaw line, brown skin and full lips.

“What did I do to deserve this?” I thought as I attempted to gently slide out of the bed and make a dash for the door. As if it had been second nature to him, he felt my weight shift and pulled me in closely.

“You’re not going anywhere.” He said still half asleep and I sighed deeply. One too many times we’d been at this place but for some reason the words seemed to resonate more this time than ever before.

Surely this couldn’t be what love felt like.

My heart began to race and anxiety bloomed in my chest like a rose opening up to the morning sun as it feels the warmth.

“Am I ready, can I do this?


My palms began to sweat and a wave of nerves hit me like a ton of bricks. The only thing running through my mind was whether or not I could live up to his expectations. I learned many moons ago not to expect anything. It was best to take each moment for exactly what it was and cherish the memory later. Cause real love wasn’t a guarantee, surely it couldn’t happen to a girl like me. It was understood to be saved for the lovely girls who sat in the church pews every Sunday with a smile on their face and a prayer on their lips. I wasn’t the proverbial 31 woman who lived by the good book. I was too much of an independent thinker. My love for God didn’t need to be shouted at the top of my lungs surround by hypocrites who didn’t live by his holy word.

My God made me and the universe alike. I was one with everything around me. I was my savior and the love I felt for myself didn’t need to be interrupted by the likes of another.

Or so I thought…

Like clockwork he told me to stop thinking so much because he knew me so well.

Before I could plan to sabotage the atmosphere he’d so delicately created just hours before taking me to new heights of intimacy he uttered ever so lightly,

“I love you.”

My resolve faded and I sunk deeper into his chest too afraid to say the words back. But he understood. He kissed the back of my neck gently and I could feel him smile against my skin as he reassured me it was okay to allow myself happiness.

“I love you too.”

And just like that, I knew it was the beginning of something I never imagined happening to me.