I’ve been really excited about the release of my book, but I have yet to really celebrate it. Honestly, I’ve been enjoying my time to myself. At this point, I’m just extremely content with not continuing some of the relationships I was previously pursuing, whether it was platonic or romantic, I’m not here for it anymore.
After getting arrested in August (yes, that happened and was a whole hot mess), I took some time to reevaluate my situation at the time. While I was in jail, I was mentally, emotionally, and spiritually to accept the consequences of what happened BUT I wasn’t going to let anyone make me feel bad for it. I took a good look at the “support” I thought I had and realized it wasn’t what I needed or wanted. It didn’t feel genuine. It didn’t feel good. I felt like I was holding back pieces of me in order to keep the vibe steady.
I’m not doing that shit anymore. For what? I’m too young to fake it for people who I’ve outgrown or no longer see eye to eye with. I’m not saying they were bad to me, it just didn’t feel right anymore. I let go of what I thought I wanted and accepted things for what they really were.
I don’t want to force anything. I don’t want to feel like I have to hide who I am or what I strive to be. So yeah, I’ve been coolin’ on my lonesome aside from literally one person. I LOVE my friend and I’m so proud of how she’s grown!
She’s been a continued source of support and CONSISTENCY this entire year, which started off extremely rough, but is ending pleasantly well. I’ve been in a great place the last few months and I’m continuing with this energy into the new year.
I’m speaking affirmations over my life and praying for new, healthy relationships to bloom as I move forward from the events that led me here. Things are far from perfect and some days, I’m just like how in the world did everything come tumbling down so fast? BUT it’s getting better, easier, smoother.
I feel like I’m in for a wild ride but I’m embracing the unknown. My birthday is right around the corner and I plan to celebrate 26 the right way. Happy with myself and even more comfortable in my skin. I’ll be able to celebrate my achievements in a big way soon enough and I’m extremely happy that I’m pursuing a passion of mine that I’ve always said I was going to do. It feels damn good to say I’m a published author. There’s definitely more to come.
The shit feels amazing.
I hope you find the courage to move on from what’s been holding you back so you can accept the next phase in your life that will elevate you to the next level.
“Live Free, Be Happy”
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