“Zaiere.” God I loved the sound of his name as it rolled off my lips.
I could hear the smirk in his voice as if he already knew what was coming.
“I have a question.”
He grinned, knowing I was about to say something along those lines.
“What is it love?
“Do you ever get tired of this…phase?” I stared pensively at the floor, hoping he wouldn’t get frustrated with my ever present sense of insecurity. I wasn’t trying to ruin the flow of our newly budding relationship, but my inner rationale kept telling me that this was too good to be true.
This beautiful, thoughtful man was all mine. And no, I didn’t think less of myself as though I didn’t deserve him, I just figured falling in real love wouldn’t happen to me. I spent all these years building myself and my career up, so I accepted that love may not be apart of the picture for me. I wasn’t a child anymore. Yeah it’s cute too believe in fairy tales when you’re young, but life as an adult will always bring you back to reality.
“No, I don’t.” He replied with the most sincere expression that I almost felt bad I even asked.
“And before you ask why, I’ll tell you.
I know you’ve been hurt. I know you’ve moved past that hurt for the most part.
But what I see in you now, is fear.
You’ve spent so much time growing into this amazing woman, the guard you’ve put up around yourself may seem impenetrable to another. But for me, I see the woman worth being patient for. I want to remove that fear by loving you unconditionally. I want to break down your resolve, leaving no traces of doubt.
I will not leave you.
I will not hurt you intentionally.
I will do everything in my power to make you comfortable with loving me, just as I love you.
We’re both new to this, but if we’re in it for the long run, this is one hurdle we can work through together. I love you. I want to make you feel secure, and if that means being patient while you work through the insecurities you currently have, I will wait as long as you need me to. We have a lifetime of love flowing between us and I will remind you each day of why I’ll always stay.”
Once again, this selfless human being has left me speechless and even more grateful to have him in my life.
Unsure of what else I could possibly say, I gave him the most loving kiss and a smile of satisfaction.
One thing I did know for sure, was that I was absolutely smitten. I wouldn’t have guessed in a million years that friendship would lead me to a love like this.