“You do know it’s ok to make lifestyle changes right?”
I try to keep that in mind on a daily basis. At this point in my life, I’m pretty adament about making some lifestyle changes to better myself. Last year I was in a state of depression. I was struggling. I was in a constant battle between wanting to do better and saying fuck this I can’t do it. I was extremely unhappy and felt like I had no way out. Don’t get me wrong I didn’t envy any one else’s life, I was just disappointed with mine because I felt like I wasn’t where I should be. I knew what I wanted to do. I was just having a hard time being patient with the process of getting there.
We’ve all been at that point. So anxious to get to the finish line that we don’t properly prepare for the tasks we’ve aligned ourselves to take on. I had to be honest with myself. I wanted to more BUT I wasn’t putting myself in the position to do more with my time. I was so focused on my unhappiness I didn’t utilize my time wisely. However I made plenty of mistakes along the way that helped me get to where I am now.
I’m more constructive with the use of my time and energy. My depression is something I still deal with but it’s easier because I’ve made lifestyle changes for the better. I stopped drinking so much. Instead of accepting no, I found a new way to find yes. Of course things aren’t perfect now but the growth I’ve reached over the past few months is amazing to me.
I stopped feeling sorry for myself and decided to make things happen because no one was going to hand my goals to me and say “here is everything you want in life, enjoy.” That happiness I felt like everyone was experiencing, I decided to find it for myself. I don’t want to play the victim anymore so I don’t. I said all of that to say, “you do know it’s ok to make lifestyle changes right?” Stop comparing yourself to others and do what’s best for you.